I hate dating. I hate the back and forth and trying to figuring out what the meaning is behind what was said. I hate texting. I hate emails. I hate asking questions. I hate when no questions are asked of me. I hate that I am impatient and need to meet to feel if the emails and texts live up to the hype. I hate all the ones that find me are not HERE ( Read more... )

I am really fucking tired of being called amazing and awesome and the best but yet being left with nothing but words. It is getting fucking old. If I am the best, why are you not choosing "the best"? I get things are crazy. But it's not just you. I just want MY WORDS to matter.

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Ever been surprised by yourself? Like, "WTF?" Just totally unsure where this shit has been hiding? It's a weird feeling. And I am not sure what is next.

I love my girls. They are THE MOST amazing people this world has. They love me and they want nothing but happiness for me. That includes trying to find me a boyfriend. So when one of them said they want to introduce me to someone they know, I did what any girl in this day and age does: find out a name and go check out the Facebook. While, of ( Read more... )

The LJ app is so fucking worthless. Of COURSE it wouldn't save my weeks worth of going ons and thoughts. And I fucking KNOW BETTER. Ugh. Just tops off the allergy hell I am currently in. I really need the Benadryl to kick already. And I have to work tomorrow. Fuck. This. Shit.

I was talking about relationships with a friend when the discussion of trying to stay friends came up. We were going back and forth when I had this thought:
Maybe you're not suppose to be friends again. Maybe there is too much hurt and disappointment to get back to being able to love each other without being in love
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Was really tired after the concert tonight (Summerland Tour with Sugar Ray). Fell asleep for like 45 minutes and now I have a 2nd wind. Great. Anyways. I am currently in a funk. Guys and life stuff are kinda making me sad. I am trying to keep from thinking by keeping busy. This week is so packed. Concert was tonight, Diamondbacks game for the 4th ( Read more... )

I miss you. I miss our talks. I miss our IMs just saying "Have a good day" because we knew it would make the other smile. I miss hearing about your day. I miss asking random questions to you. I miss my friend.

Do you miss your friend, too?

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How do you let go of the person who made you feel perfect?
How do you stop loving someone who gave you one of the few pieces of calm you've had in years?
How do you stop thinking about them? Worrying about them, wondering if they are ok?
How do you stop from crying because YOUR choice changed EVERYTHING?

Why are there never any easy answers?

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From MBFF:

"This is the only reason i like living here. Wish u. Were here. ''

Me too MBFF. Me too.



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